Thursday, February 21, 2008

Romy is two months old

Her two month visit to the Pediatrician revealed our little one to be 12 lb, 9oz, 22.5" long, and a head circumfrence of 16". She is in the 90th percentile for weight and head size and the 50th for length. It is so surprising to me that she is not longer...with a daddy, uncles and grandfathers over 6 feet tall. Her eyes are still blue and i see no signs of them changing.

She is holding her head up wonderfully and starting to flip herself on her side and back again without trouble. She smiles at the sound of our voices. She makes so many noises it is the most precious thing in the world to hear her little baby voice. She is crying more. She still isn't sleeping through the night but has increased the number of hours she is sleeping. She is pretty easy to read...and i cannot complain - she is a good baby.

She had her vaccinations last Friday and spiked a temperature and was a bit irritable for a few hours. It was difficult to watch her in pain and discomfort. I think we handled it well though. thank goodness for Courtenay's Infant Tylenol advice. that stuff works quick and like a champ.

The MOM job is getting easier for me. well, i guess that isn't the correct word, but things seem to be falling into place with me. going out with her isn't all that frightening. i am building up my muscles from her weight combined with the weight of the car seat. man, it's a workout. I'm currently seeking employment and touring daycares and enjoying the time i have left. Life is less stressful these days.

Date night

People weren't kidding when they told me that time would start to fly by once you have a child. Romy is two months old and just the other day, while holding a newborn who weighed as much as Romy once did, I realized my little one has taken off and is growing into a toddler before my eyes. Before I know it, she will be walking.

Post pardum depression may or may not effect you after you have a baby. I prepared myself for hormone hell, and after the first two weeks flew by without an ounce of irritation, i thought i was in the clear. It wasn't until week 6 that my new reality started to set in. Making the adjustment from me to MOM seemed to frighten me all of the sudden. Stress of finances, lack of "work", the unknown future, worries of whether i'm going to succeed with raising a child were all lingering and scaring the crap out of me. The good thing to know is, it was all normal. The first thing I am thankful for is girlfriends. without them, i may have allowed myself to sink deeper. the most important thing is recognizing your feelings, staring them in the face and devising a plan to conquer them. conquering them meant, to me, finding myself. the Pam i knew pre-pregnancy...the woman who got lost in maternity clothes and hormone hell.

date night. an absolute necessity in regaining your spiritual strength, reconnecting with your mate and reminding yourself you are a woman who deserves to feel wonderful and sexy -- even all the while keeping your MOM priorities -- just on back burner for a mere evening in order to recapture your sanity.

24/7 is a lot of time to spend with your newborn. while most of it is awesome - there are times when i stepped back and asked myself....oh my god....can i just sleep NOW. maternity leave is a must, and a much appreciated leave of absence from work, but make no mistake...this is not a vacation. this is an exploration of self...finding the best way to slowly acclimate yourslef into a new life. it takes a lot of effort, patience, and understanding - all from within.

i am so thankful to have gone out to dinner with Ted over Valentine's Day weekend. It became a huge eye opener - a breath of fresh air - my mini theraputic vacation - from my MOM duties. It was refreshing, comfortable, enjoyable - heck, it was so much fun! i saw what i love in me ...i could breathe easy and relax and not worry. one, just one of these every other month or so...i believe, will keep me on my feet. that, and a refreshing visit to the hair salon.

Being a MOM is the hardest job i have ever had but truly the most rewarding. but even the best jobs in the world need stepping away from so you can truly enjoy the beauty of them.

Monday, February 11, 2008

and now it's February...


Well, it's true...just when you figured out your baby's schedule, it changes. Romy has gone from waking every 2 1/2 - 3 hours to sleeping 7 hours straight yesterday. I believe she is going through a growth spurt...

watching your baby try to imitate you is the most wonderful thing so far. she is making noises and mimmicing my mouth movements. she oooo, ahhhhhhhs, ohhhhhhhhs and it's so incredible. her hands went from clenched to open. her neck is stronger. she is more interested and becomes less interested in a short period of time. she loves to be held. she smiles at the sound of my voice in the morning. she is intrigued by bright things. she smells wonderful. her little cries make me want to wash away everything that bothers her. her play mat is finally a place to practice focusing. her tummy mats are proving more useful.

her eyes are still blue, her hair fell out and is growing in darker. her skin is sensitive and breaks out here and there. she loves high pitch noises and the sound of her daddy's voice. she loves attention but loves chillin in her vibrating chair. she enjoys being read to and looking at bright pictures in her books. she isn't too enamored by rattles or loud sounds or clapping. she loves being walked around, facing out, held tightly to my chest. her little legs are straightening as she tries to stand every day. she sits up with a little help from her Bumbo.

I'm loving every minute, but the fun has to stop sometime with the beginning of my job search. I have begun sending my resume...so we will cross our fingers that this process isn't too pain staking.